my poems, my thoughts all here ;]


Saturday, April 10, 2010

Tell me How

6:02 AM Posted by Ren™ No comments
Tell me How
tell me how am i supposed to live without you
especially now that i don't even know how to forget you
tell me how am i supposed to open my eyes
when all i've been seeing is what i called lies

i was almost near to being out of life
only your love is keeping me alive
everything doesn't matter to anymore
all i want is for you to come and open the door

coz no words can express how much i've been missing you
coz no feelings could tell how much i've been wanting you
coz no words can say how much i've been needing you
and no feelings could tell how much i've been loving you...


Learn to Wait

6:01 AM Posted by Ren™ No comments
Learn to wait

Shake all those fears
Let joy replace them all
Wipe all those tears
Let your eyes call

Those feelings bitterly hidden
In your heart which is forbidden
Let your soul judge
Keep no grudge

Be not hurt
Feel no more pain
Don't let your eyes avert
Let the decision of your soul reign

Love who you want to love!
Don't stop, don't look away!
Don't just accept the other's love!
Because they'll be the one to stay!

Even if there's no little chance
Even though he says he wont
Things may change in a glance
Just learn to wait and wait!

-Ren :)

Harapin Mo

6:00 AM Posted by Ren™ No comments
Harapin ang bukas;
wag matakot;
matutong magtimpi.
Labanan ang pagkatakot.
Magkaruon ng tiwala sa sarili.
Nang tuluyan mo nang
malampasan mga hadlang
Na sa kinabukasan mo'y
pilit humaharang.
Matutong tumayo sa sarili mong paa
Nang hindi naa umasa pa sa iba.
Walang mapapala kung patuloy
kang magkukubli sa isang sulok
Pilitin mong makawala sa kadiliman;
sa iyong sariling pagkabusabos.
Buksan mo ang bintana nang kalinawagan;
nang makalaya ang siyang kaluluwang batid.
Huwag magsinungaling sa sarili.
Harapin ang katotohanan.
Buksan ang mga matang may lakas ng loob;
Hanapin mo ang katotohanan na bumabalot
sa kasinungalingan.
Nang maging maliwanag;
ang daang pinapatag.
Umasa sa walang hanggang kasiyahan.

-REN. (akin toh) ;)

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Seven Reasons

7:21 AM Posted by Ren™ No comments

Thanks for everything.
Thanks for the love and caring.
I appreciate it very much.

First of all,
From the first time we talked,
I thought you were one weird person,
for you asked me if I can be your lover.
Yet, i was so sad to know that you're just one
of the victims of the heart that destroys.

Second of all.
I want to show you the beauty of this world.
I want to show you what a true friend is.
I want to show you what a trust can do.
I want to show you the link that
connects the souls of humans.

I never expected that you would love me.
I never thought that you would be so sincere like this.
I never thought you're that passionate.
I never thought that you're one great person
whom in the very first, and very end, I admired.

Yet, I can't return back the feelings of yours.
I'm just here receiving it, and that's what I regret.
I don't want you to get hurt. I want to do something for you,
like what you did to me.

Yet, I have no time nor chance to do all of that.
My moments, my seconds, my chances are
all dedicated to the person I love.
I, myself, my own can't walk away from
the person I treasured now and even before I've met you.
I regret doing this to you.
But simply I can't.

I know you'll understand me!
And I know that it would take a time
to really forget the feeling of love.
Yet, I know you're destined one will surely come,
and fetch you from your broken shell
and carry you to your better world
and show you beauty you've never seen.

When that time comes,
expect I'm behind your back,
pushing you through and catching you through.
While by your side is your fated person,
laughing with you, smiling with you, enjoying with you.

if only we could see everything we are meant to be.

7:21 AM Posted by Ren™ No comments
Life runs along the way, last for miles,
but as for some it cuts short, and for others so short.

So let's look ahead.
With our wishful dreams and hopes for future.
The darkness of sorrow, the light of happiness.
The swift breeze of morning, the warm atmosphere of noon.
Thousand leaves dancing at our feet.
Walking into the light of an anonymous.

And now we've come across the path.
All things we ought to know, now full of doubts.
Tears fall so heavily yet no one sees.
Cries, echo, ears itself can't hear.
Broken hearts all around.
Shatters and fall all around us.
As we fall to our knees, clutching our chests and weep in pain,
Does no one see?
Both broken life and broken dream?

As we are a part of nature,
the sky cries a broken song,
as we cry along to its shattering melody, studded rhythm
and of a once beautiful love song.

And as our relationships broaden there comes our friends.
Friends may come and go,
Some move along with their lives, leaving us behind.
Yet some stay and never let go.
Hands reach out as others never even try.

And everyone has a family.
A father that holds a young and talented daughter.
A mother that holds a strong and proud little boy
The future's bequest that they do see yet you do not see.

The world turns and spins.
And in the middle is where we stand.
In a twisting web, a tree of life.
if only we could see everything we are meant to be.

and tis was what I learned what love is

7:18 AM Posted by Ren™ No comments
I'll walk with you into the twilight's darkness.
I'll take your hand and make you feel happiness
Just the thought of us being together
Makes me form tears that lasts forever

My heart that's seeing you like this can't take it no more
It is hurting the very same way as yours
My gaze, eyes, heart, and soul that is all looking at you
is the same as your gaze, eyes, heart, and soul
that looks at the person who left you..

I want to give you everything I have 
And shower you with all my love
Even if you remember the painful memories
I'll definitely erase them all and throw them in seas

Can you please turn around and look at me now?
Please give me a chance too! I'll take a bow!
I'll cover up the scar that person left in you with pride.
I'll take it upon myself, making up for it forever by your side
So give me a chance...

How I hope you could hold this heart.
Yes I'm weak so please don't depart.
I love you this much and my heart is still like this
If you are by my side i know there's nothing i'll miss
Even if something happens out of the blue
I can reach out as long as it is you
Even after today and till whenever
I know we'll love each other forever

With that brightest smile of yours sparkling my world
With the endless shower of flowers in my world
I curse this path that we've always walked on
Dye it with the brightest color ever lived.

For your sake I absolutely live and survive
Withstand and endure.
Stand up and Fall.
I'll do anything for you.
Even to sacrifice and give.
and tis was what I learned what love is. 


7:17 AM Posted by Ren™ No comments

Excited? No, i'm not.
It's just a damn dance.

An invitation
for a little celebration.

Too much expenses
for a little experience.

Too much expectations
Then later full of discriminations.

Too much transformation,
there comes admiration.

Too much fun.
yet later done.

Sweet Valentines

7:15 AM Posted by Ren™ No comments
Only If I can spend each little second with you
I would do anything and everything just to pursue
The happiness and joy, the smiles and laughters
We both dreamed of

This passion, sincerity and love will never fade
Even if chances, moments, and times itself forbade
Because no matter what the circumstances are
I'll bring you what you desire

Thanks, my love, for being the star of my valentine
I'm here, very grateful for this splendid time
Wondering how our fates and destinies entwine
And how our feet crossed the line

Im human but that is all that I am.

7:15 AM Posted by Ren™ No comments
Why was life never made easy?
I wonder when was it ever made right?
Im human but that is all that i am.
Im not made to live life through everything all alone.
I can't take every throw everyone's hitting at me.
I can stand only through so many before i fall.
And when i finally do...
Will everyone see all the bruises and scars they have left on me?
Then will they finally notice my tear-jerking face?
The misty confusion in my eyes?
I wonder what...
What have i done?
Was i wrong for trying to be there for you?
Was i so wrong for loving you?
I try to stand, they tripped me
I'm down, they stepped on my hands, I can't fight back.
They threw an arrow and dagger both through my heart.
And as i weap i say "im sorry" over and over again.
Do my words reach their ears?
Do my crys reach them at all?
They badmouthed and laugh at my back
They say cruel things that feels like a cut in my back.
I feel the hurt and the pain from the betrayal.
That is even friendship is snaping like a branch from once healthy tree.
We used to laugh and smile,
but now they throw stones and im left to take to the fall.
Will they notice me when im gone?
Will they notice me when i leave?
Cause i can no longer take the pain of them walking all over me?
If you could, would you silence the stone for me?

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Bare Hands Part 2 (*beware*)

11:59 AM Posted by Ren™ No comments

cant escape from the sheets we have shared
this passionate momentum we have both desired
in the night which only the moon had witnessed
i whined all through the night and became so modest

you came inside me and finally; for so long have i wished
you became mine, I became yours; yet the night is still long
we make love over and over again; we both became a beast

along as our kisses are going deeper and deeper;
your naughty hands were climbing down my flower,
so long i noticed your lips were going down
finally you have reached your desired destination

without hesitation, you flustered all over me
you touched the spot I've treasured since then
you licked with those hot tongue of yours;
and oooh, i yearned for more

and when you entered the key
i became more and more aggressive
i want faster, harder and you did it for me
the night is going on, and the next is what i can't believe

we have done it with playful positions
but your hotdog was unbelievably still hard
i sucked it and never did expected it was delicious
so i took a sly position and entered my own to you

till morning, till dawn
nonstop we have entered
each other's world

but that's not the end of story,
though the night ended playfully

i was deeply hurt and tried to control myself
yet damn it this mad escape of mine won't do
you've taken my heart, my soul, my body
you trained my body until i became addicted to you

this burning desire won't go
this passionate melody won't stop

i wanted more, i reached my limit, i became so bold
i walked up straight to you and ask you for once more
and you did not refused me; like a princess i was carried
to your room that looks like ready for another erotic masterpiece

you always have amused me
you never failed to satisfy me
i was so tired, i've reached my limit,
yet you were never contented

and countless nights have you taken me
and amidst our playful scene
you finally said you loved me...


PS. i didn't experienced it!
i was just reading a manga
and was inspired to write!

Soar I

11:59 AM Posted by Ren™ No comments
i want to soar up high!
rebuild my name; my reputation.
yet why no opportunity knocks,
in order for me to do so
i want everyone to tell me the truth!
reveal their hidden thoughts!
convey their hidden feelings!

yet why does everyone seems to be so cold?
the adults; the olders; some people,
why do they discriminate?
why do they criticize?
can't a person like me live in peace?
can't i love normally like other does?

am i trash that needed to be discarded?
the answer is no right?
i have a purpose, just like everyone else
yet why do everyone and almost everything
ends up being the barrier to my fulfillment?